its been some time, i have come to realise, since i wrote in this space. perhaps because i was beginning to feel that some things should better be just kept to myself or that they may sound stupid or that no one would bother reading them anyway.
well, the summer was nothing spectacular and i was in fact contemplating things with more seriousness than ever. that is the danger of having too much free time. to be honest, i hate it- not that its a particularly bad thing, just that i don't like that sense of being bogged down by what i feel may sometimes be quite unnecessary. having too much time is another thing i have come to realise may not be that much of a good thing because i lose the sense of urgency and rhythm to things and invariably, they just go downhill and dwindle. its like i have all the time to say, brush up on my IT skills for instance but i didnt do anything and instead, now that school has started then only will i step on it. i guess i thrive better in tighter and more sticky situations, quite unfortunately or fortunately so? that being said, i am pretty much happy school has started, its as if i am back on track and moving along. stagnation is a bad feeling, nausea inducing in fact. i have decided also, to adhere to some mental notes/principles which i have come to recognise will do me good. there is value attached to everything as long as you recognise and extract it. the danger lies when you start rejecting things and close doors which otherwise may lead to growth and progress. that being said, the key words here are growth and progress. a friend once told me not to let your dreams tie and bog you down.
i just wish there were more people i could respect and really look up too, to feel inferior beside. i actually quite enjoy that feeling.
For now tho, taking in different things on a daily basis would be a poor but satisfactory substitute i guess.
this new semester is gonna be a ride, just not an particularly rough one i hope.
goodnight!
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